The past few days have been much better.
Not perfect, but there have been some gaps in the clouds; and I am learning to let these, and the clouds themselves, be.
This has been the important bit that I had nearly forgotten how to do.
Sit with the discomfort for a little bit in order to acknowledge whatever’s going on and then learn that it passes.
Wedge a few crucial seconds in between thought and action so that I can think about whether I really want to do what I’m about to do.
Give the moments where I sit though the former and walk away from the latter room to breathe so that I don’t crush the good bits before they’ve had time to grow -
Let it be.
So simple, and yet so hard when impulsivity and fear have been leading the way.