Posts Tagged ‘Eating’

Food and the Move

Sunday, August 29th, 2010

I haven’t written about food for a while. Partly because I’ve been doing really well with relaxing around it; and partly because my mind has been addled by other things. Food is, however, back on the agenda at the moment, and yet again, it’s linked to ‘the move’. I think this move might throw up a lot of skeletons in the next few weeks, so I apologise in advance…

Getting Okay With Food

Monday, August 9th, 2010

I had semi-skimmed milk on my cereal this morning. It is little steps like these that remind me of how far I have come. I brought some, over the weekend, for a friend that came to stay; and, rather than insisting that they take it with them or knocking on my neighbour’s door, as I’ve done in the past, I decided to get over it and drink it, instead.


Saturday, July 31st, 2010

As anyone who follows me on Twitter is aware, I’ve just baked my first batch of biscuits. As a blogger, rather than a baker, it’s only right that I should write about the experience; but I’m not quite sure where to start – baking seems to have been more about feeling and doing than thinking for me. This is a bit of a surprise, to be honest, especially as I’ve spent so long building up the activity in my head.

Food: Changing the Message

Tuesday, June 22nd, 2010

One of my friends always makes a point of asking me what I am eating at lunchtime; and, when I’ve finished, whether it tasted nice. I mumble whatever I am eating; snap, when I have finished; and, bristle with hostility throughout. Then, I feel terrible; apologise for my behaviour; and explain that I’m not quite up to talking about food yet. Her response? She realises that, but she’ll keep asking, all the same, because it’s a normal kind of question, and I need to get used to being asked.

The Calathea

Wednesday, June 2nd, 2010

I have a calathea on the window sill in my front room.

I’m not particulary green-fingered so I keep forgetting that it needs to be fed.

A few days ago, I noticed that the cool stripey leaves had become crisp and were drooping (oops); and, in an attempt to save it from shrivelling away, I whisked the baby bio and watering-can out.

Today, when I got home from work and the sun was streaming through the window, I noticed that the leaves were unfurled and blooming; and the plant is radiant, once again.

This is the second time I’ve had to provide my calathea with a little emergency TLC. You would have thought that the first near miss – and then incredible revival – would have stopped me from letting it wilt again….

Some lessons need to be learned a few times and some miracles take a while to sink in.

I know it’s not as easy as a jug of water and some baby bio –

But feed a person properly and they, too, can come back to life.

Full Fat

Thursday, May 6th, 2010

My friend has challenged me to replace sweetener with sugar. Frankly, the idea had never even entered my head. I’m not quite sure what goes into the little blue dispenser I carry around with me – but why have sugar, when I could have calorie free sweetness instead?

It started me thinking – this sweetener challenge – of a few automatic assumptions that I have around food; and the extent to which weight loss, even though medically un-needed, still seems to rule the roost.

My food choices remain based, at some subconscious level, on the calorific content – and I don’t often consider the other variables that might begin to factor in.

In Search of Intuitive Eating

Friday, April 9th, 2010

The concept of intuitive eating has only just started crossing my radar.

It sounds like an interesting idea – but at the moment, it also appears to be from another planet.

For me, intuitive and eating do not even appear in the same sentence, let alone alongside each other. With normality a lifetime ago, I still think in hospital speak ‘1 protein, 1 carbohydrate and 2 veg’; weigh out one of three ‘nutritionally enhanced’ breakfast cereals at 7am, come hunger or not; and couldn’t tell you if I like or loathe peas. I do not fancy cake, nor experience satisfaction; and I rotate my food groups to make sure that I’ve got a tick in each box –

In touch with my eating, I most definitely am not. So, I’m making a little introduction:

Making Friends with Food

Tuesday, March 16th, 2010

I am not very good at talking about food.

Despite the amount of time I have spent obsessing on the subject, and in spite of the leaps that I have taken in the ‘right’ direction; I still find myself a little touchy around the conversations that most people have on a daily basis –

“That looks nice” is rarely awarded a response; “what are you eating?” gets a swift brush off; and, the “what food do you like?” question is shrugged off, like a bad smell.

A Phobia of Food-

Saturday, January 16th, 2010

I seem to be a little squeamish about food.

I am yet to work out whether this is a consequence – or a cause; a commonality – or a quirk that’s peculiar to myself.

It goes back to a peanut in a glass of orange juice incident, and is proving quite hard to shrug off –

Filled Pasta (and life after an eating disorder)

Sunday, November 22nd, 2009

Filled pasta is my proof that there’s life after an eating disorder –

And that you can do things that you didn’t think that you would be able to do.

Getting the Menu Plan Right –

Sunday, July 12th, 2009

Can I just point out that a plastic portioned plate of cold food is not the best recipe for encouraging someone to eat?

Is it only me who realises that high calorie creamed cuisine is likely to be a little bit cloying for someone who is unaccustomed to eating?

If you’re trying to support someone to recover, it’s good to apply a little logic.

The Proof is in the Pudding

Saturday, July 11th, 2009

I couldn’t resist. I know the subject (re-learning how to start eating normally) is serious but I’d rather lighten the tone, ease the tension a little.

And it’s not just an empty pun. It’s exactly what I had to do. Prove that food isn’t what the eating disorder said it was, start building up a little evidence, find a little ammunition to challenge 17 years of negative associations.

Nutritional Information

Friday, July 3rd, 2009

I’ve had a few small misconceptions about food that some good nutritional advice has helped me to correct.

For a start, fat does not convert into body fat.

Second, you get out what you put in – and no puns are intended. Invest wisely because your body is a temple.

Third, the car-petrol-food-fuel analogy isn’t as clichéd as it sounds. You can only run on empty for so long.

Nutritionists can really help to change your thoughts about food and, as I started to get my head in gear, they armed me with some great science to challenge some of the bizarre conclusions my anorexia had reached.

Carrots and Coriander

Wednesday, July 1st, 2009

I am developing an unexpected interest in the culinary arts. It started with soup and hand blenders, carrots and coriander.

It’s not another unhealthy obsession, I hasten to add; but, I didn’t realise that you could taste pride. Along with organic vegetables and freshly mezzaluna’d herbs.

Who’d have thought that something which had caused me so much pain might actually start to bring me some pleasure? Food feels quite different when you breathe out a little of that guilt and start getting over the fear.

Cooking is becoming strangely therapeutic.