Archive for the ‘Eating’ Category

Food: Changing the Message

Tuesday, June 22nd, 2010

One of my friends always makes a point of asking me what I am eating at lunchtime; and, when I’ve finished, whether it tasted nice. I mumble whatever I am eating; snap, when I have finished; and, bristle with hostility throughout. Then, I feel terrible; apologise for my behaviour; and explain that I’m not quite up to talking about food yet. Her response? She realises that, but she’ll keep asking, all the same, because it’s a normal kind of question, and I need to get used to being asked.

In Search of Intuitive Eating

Friday, April 9th, 2010

The concept of intuitive eating has only just started crossing my radar.

It sounds like an interesting idea – but at the moment, it also appears to be from another planet.

For me, intuitive and eating do not even appear in the same sentence, let alone alongside each other. With normality a lifetime ago, I still think in hospital speak ‘1 protein, 1 carbohydrate and 2 veg’; weigh out one of three ‘nutritionally enhanced’ breakfast cereals at 7am, come hunger or not; and couldn’t tell you if I like or loathe peas. I do not fancy cake, nor experience satisfaction; and I rotate my food groups to make sure that I’ve got a tick in each box –

In touch with my eating, I most definitely am not. So, I’m making a little introduction:

Making Friends with Food

Tuesday, March 16th, 2010

I am not very good at talking about food.

Despite the amount of time I have spent obsessing on the subject, and in spite of the leaps that I have taken in the ‘right’ direction; I still find myself a little touchy around the conversations that most people have on a daily basis –

“That looks nice” is rarely awarded a response; “what are you eating?” gets a swift brush off; and, the “what food do you like?” question is shrugged off, like a bad smell.

A Phobia of Food-

Saturday, January 16th, 2010

I seem to be a little squeamish about food.

I am yet to work out whether this is a consequence – or a cause; a commonality – or a quirk that’s peculiar to myself.

It goes back to a peanut in a glass of orange juice incident, and is proving quite hard to shrug off –

The Proof is in the Pudding

Saturday, July 11th, 2009

I couldn’t resist. I know the subject (re-learning how to start eating normally) is serious but I’d rather lighten the tone, ease the tension a little.

And it’s not just an empty pun. It’s exactly what I had to do. Prove that food isn’t what the eating disorder said it was, start building up a little evidence, find a little ammunition to challenge 17 years of negative associations.